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So, this blog among the others have stemmed from a moment in my life of "self-realization". Saturday, I was praying, well this time seriously have a conversation with God like I was talking to my best friend (in which He is, LOL). The convo started from me being 'real' to myself about this week's events and things prior to it. I recognized that I was really disappointed in myself in how I handled matters that are really important. I had handled them through a state called procrastination. Truth be told, I'm still growing up and understanding some truths that go with being on your own and being successful in being on your own. The latter, by grace, is trial and error, but through faith, its a process that requires God's continuous direction and you consistently taking action and effective responsibility of your 'own'. BUT, I felt that I needed to dive a little deeper into the reasoning behind my procrastination and as you dive deeper, other things begin to appear on the surface, in which it did!! I realized, that procrastination's root is fear; indecision, comes from fear. As we know, God has NOT given us the Spirit of Fear, but ONE of POWER, of LOVE, and of A SOUND MIND. Let's use the "sound mind" portion. Within a sound mind, you have the keen ability to think for yourself, do for yourself, react, and make sound decisions...JUST THAT SIMPLE!! BUT, out of fear, we fail in operating and using the sound mind that has been GIVEN to us. So, in light of that fact, I recognized and was like "HOLD ON YO, WHAT'S REALLY GOOD TIFF?" I realized that I hadn't been walking in peace for YEARS, because I was operating in fear of not being able to do what I needed to do, when time came for me to do. Be it writing a paper (in which I must do now), doing an assignment, reading a textbook for a 'engineering class', buying clothes/shoes/car/etc, paying bills, meeting deadlines, and this list goes on and on (you probably can add to it as well). The fear, that spirit, was soo arresting, it hindered me from living. "I Can Do All Things Through Christ Who Strengthens Me"...that's simple isn't it, especially if you're a believer; but alas, I'm a believer and I procrastinated in fear of not being able to do what I needed to do at a given point in time. So, I realized that its time for me to "realistically" apply the Word of God to my life. Therefore, the aspect of fear in relation to procrastination I can successfully conquer and overcome by believing in myself and furthermore in the Christ that strengthens me to do everything I needed to on a "day-to-day" basis.
Consequently, I'm not finish dealing, LOL!! More came up that revolved around fear. For YEARS, I have wanted to be accepted, loved, appreciated, cared for, approved...I lived in the reality of fear of being rejected, being disapproved, misunderstood and soo much more...Fear is a crippling disease especially if not dealt with early in life, because in your adult life, heavier doses of treatment may be required of you to be healed...but I'm thankful that I can be healed #InJesusName LOL, but seriously, I can and I will be...The mental catharsis I experienced was mind blowing and life changing and the root of fear was exposed in my life in various surface issues that I am currently dealing with and overcoming. So, now in my new revelation in life and my life's motto, "Live Fearlessly...Live Free!!", I'm determined to adopt this way of thinking and living in my lifestyle and daily choices. Personally, I've found that fear has caused me to live a self-absorbed life, which consists of "self-importance" or "personal importance". In the book "The Four Agreements" by don Miguel Ruiz, he said that "Personal importance, or taking things personally, is the maximum expression of selfishness because we make the assumption that everything is about 'me'". Fear will cause you to live this way and you are subject to your own selfishness which is a major hindrance on/in your life. Selfishness keeps you "bound" from having the opportunity to open up (be self-less) and experience the freedom, power, love, and sound mind that God freely gives to us all. In a selfish state of mind and being, you are conformed to the habits of this world and society, which are inevitably soo very immensely negative, so the simple thing to do is conquer Fear..."That isn't as easy as you make it sound, Tiffany". True, it isn't because you are forced to deal with the reactions that come up from fear, especially if you take a stance on handling that and changing that so that you can live a fearless and free lifestyle...YOU GOTTA BE WILLING AND OBEDIENT, LOL!! But you really do; willing to handle fear and conquer it; and be obedient to the Word of God and follow the Spirit of God (which has liberty [freedom], power, love, and sound mind [peace, contentment]). This lifestyle change is one of discipline and one that calls for making a stand/stance that will go against the grain, but in the end will have a greater good and effect on you and especially those around you (family, friends, loved ones, strangers, heck the world).
So, I'm making a daily choice to "Live Fearlessly...Live Free" on my "day-to-day" basis...That motto goes on the job, with family, friends, strangers, in my whole life. It feels good to start walking in deliverance from Fear, because Fear is a root of evil, that can and obviously has the ability to tear up lives, communities, and abroad...and even in our own homes and individual life. I take a firm stand against it...even if its just to be at peace within myself and be legitimately happy...Heck, smh I'm all for it...Hopefully you are too, Peace & Blessings...
-TVCM-
"Live Fearlessly...Live Free"
